So in August 2020 I tried to begin the journey back to me but no…… not yet because COVID will rule everything! I did work out for a long time at forever strong even on Zoom but my weight really did not go down much, I got stronger and felt good but was I going to do this level of exercise for the rest of my life? No.. No Way. So this just wasn’t my thing. It also confirmed what I already knew you can’t work out a bad diet.
Back to COVID everyone’s arch nemesis! This is a reminder of what we faced during COVD.
September the kids started home school and the focus was on them. (Not me) I didn’t know that this is an excuse, at least it is not an obvious one, but if I put all my efforts into other people, I didn’t have to take care of myself. I didn’t know that was my thing until now.
The rest of 2020 was a blur. The 2021 began with the same crap as 2020. COVID, home schooling and now the mental health of both of my beautiful daughters is damaged. They are both depressed, have anxieties they now have lost that lust for life. Day in and day out during home school they barely got out of bed, they didn’t see their friends things were bad.
I also began working at home during COVID and it has its strengths and weaknesses. I loved not having to drive to DC and pay a fortune in parking and lose 3+ hours a day in the *&^%$ car. But I stopped “getting ready” and wore comfy yoga pants and t-shirts all day. That is good at first but then 6 months in you cant remember when you put mascara on or perfume. So I guess I let myself go even more.
There has got to be a way for me to get back on the Journey back to me.
Stay Tuned….
A journey back to me 